Which way do we go?

Well, our lives have taken a small detour. We recently found out that we are expecting another child, Branden has been laid off of work and we are now going to need a larger home for our growing family. Not to mention that our finances are already tight. In my heart, I know that everything will work out for the best and everything will fall into place, but what's going on in my head is another story. I am so distraught. I can't help but to be a little selfish. I was looking forward to returning to college in January, but once again Nursing school has been put on hold. Branden and I were recently looking for other houses and planning to buy, but now all I can think about is "How in the world will we afford a bigger home"? The one thing that I don't understand about my husband is how much he thinks he needs the materialistic things in life. When we started dating, he didn't even own a cell phone or have cable, and now he makes it seem as if he would die if he had to do without either of these things. Another thing that really bugs me is that I used to be able to pay all of our bills with my income, but now it seems as if everything has spiraled out of control. I realize that our family is blessed to have the things in life that we have; which is a lot more than most people, but somehow I still feel unsure about the future and changes that are to come. Surely, my hormones have no affect on my feelings right now!